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YEAR 30 COMING UP

HISTORY: Nov-Dec 2000

1998 1987 1996

2026 has arrived.
Year 30.





i have a story to tell you






dec 30



money running out.....







mon
day
dec 29

pretending to be christian
requires self confidence
and
being in a decent space.


those people upstairs
are
going
to
hell.


good morning

























...
sun
day
...


dec 28










be careful.
you do too much.

you did too much.
they don't g.a.f.



dec. 27






dec 26

need to write a book about 
people who clean the whole kitchen while guests are still in their house


maybe i'm wrong about him
maybe i shouldn't care (ummm yes)
is that why they didn't stay long?
wow, that's nice lol.
nicer than me.
lol.




louise.
he is visiting THEM
not YOU.
stop caring.



she told me she hates cities,
she hates being around people,
she was raised by a narcissist,
(she told me)...

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i failed lol.

merry christmas

dec. 25
3:03PM









it's Christmastime, i need to be more kind.


...

(are they ? )

( lol.)




let's just tell my weekend thoughts.


why am i thinking finally about dad 
is it cause im over another hill 
or cause its processing 
or cause it has taken me this long to miss him 
or cause its taken me this long to realize that its him i used to visit 
did i ever visit her …?


did i ever know why i visited them
well yes  you loved them 

well 
maybe now that ernie’s gone 
and that you have learned what you regret , … 
which has caused you to learn and that your emotions are extremely processed ,


maybe that’s why you feel very differently about them. 
maybe that’s why you

—- no —- no that that’s why you don’t care about them -

it’s that you are still grieving  - your emotions are broken …
i mean ,
not broken

but just very completely focusing on your own emotions…

which isn’t at all related to them 
your emotions are about you …

and making sure you live in love 
that’s why you left - you wanted to be in love. 

so now that you regret it, you understand that your life is about loving .
now that you wrote that, you’re wondering if AI could explain this lol

and -
you realize that your mother loves you 
she does really … 
so you need to start thinking about who you love.
love is so weird…
we love people differently don't we.













Nobody forced you to do this.
dec. 20





why me?



following my mandatory activity...

...

cause they don't understand much.

their priorities are ...

first world problems.


when i tell her that my body aches and my memory loses,


...

she laughs.





dec. 19








if all you do is give gifts on christmas
you are just doing what’s mandatory 




dec. 18







i guess people who are fucking bitches are much less boring than the others.

dec. 17


RIP Rob Reiner. say Hi to Ernie.






i need to make the entire list.
1. limited
2. behave like them (fake)
3. they will never understand
4. they have assumptions
5. i will never change them
6. their world is narrow
7. they are less open on purpose
8. it works for them
9. my brain is wider


10. i am nicer than them because i am less limited, i behave like myself, i understand, i have less assumptions, i change, my world is wider, i am more open, it does not work for me.

do they know they never reach out?
do they know i did? and stopped?





i also hate the fakeness.


dec. 16







all bills paid.
8:02 am

dec.11


it's the same conversations forever.













why are the forecasts so different 
we grew up and forecast snow was “snow”
now it’s super detailed 
so yeah everything is detailed
do less people get hurt now ?



Yes, car accidents have significantly reduced in Canada
over the past 50 years, both in absolute numbers
and as a rate of population and drivers and vehicles.

since 1975:

• fatalities have decreased by 71%
• Serious injuries have decreased by 69%
• total injuries have decreased by 53%

Remarkable numbers, because:
population has increased by 64%
number of drivers increased by 124%
number of vehicles increased by 129%
...

dec. 10

 forecast today:

Yellow Forecast:

5:32 AM EST Wednesday 10 December 2025

Impact Level: Moderate

Forecast Confidence: High

What:

15 to 20 centimetres of snow When: From this morning into Thursday evening. Where: Greater Montreal Area Additional information: On Thursday, winds will be strong and will cause blowing snow, locally reducing visibilities. Travel will likely be challenging. There may be a significant impact on rush hour traffic. Visibility will likely be reduced at times. Allow extra time for travel.

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dec. 10





i used to really like her
but now i realize why they are who they are.
i doo feel bad that they never had kids.
i'm 100% sure she wanted some.













dec 9




i wrote the whole world.
what do i write now?



happy 10:21
dec. 8




discuss how right wingers just want to be happier
they don’t care about left wing conversations because those conversations are too serious 

i’ve sort of moved a bit

because i want to live my life … after grief, we want to live.

because there’s not much we can do to change anything

or anyone … 

people aren’t going to give a f what you tell them













wait, does she have ANY male friends...?

now i'm curious.
ahh. i remember, she explained she hates the city, hates people.
right.


also remembeer, he said he didn't want to interact with people he doesn't know.

dec. 5













ok i'm going to document this for my brain.
dec. 3
happened on dec. 2

brain debating who to mention it to.
should not have mentioned.
"i dropped off some gifts for kids"
"I WANTED TO DO THAT didn't you remember that we discussed we were going to do that together??"
...
"no"
...

"... second one, hold on, give me a minute


"can i drop you off here"
...
rant rant rant
"just don't drive me"
...

"ok"






Twitter:


when we moved here in 2011, the c#nt upstairs didn't let me bring my father's 80 year old piano into this apartment.
she has left, and now, the new people upstairs bounce on a treadmill for hours, drop shit on my ceiling all night long, and run down the stairs.






there's alot i would write.
but i won't. lol.

i'm a bit slow.

dec. 2




















White Rabbits

i have feelings and care about the world.
my brain has been conditioned to think and feel certain ways.

my brain is wired differently.
so if your brain is wired differently
am i differently interpreting my own brain????






there are different things that make you realize if you are different.
also, you might be the same in some ways.
but different in others.
expectations, assumptions.




Turning off our brain is a full time job.
...

Well, if you actually have emotions.





dec. 1



the list is huge 
he doesn’t support my social media 
none of them would watch all my videos and comment to support me


(topics: social media: generations: MBTI types: what else?)
(Emily Finn)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zVZ3UGTJa4Y