october 2024

november




oct.. 31


payday
hayday
wayday
layday
crayday

they both keep telling me that it's MHI the problem so


if i get fired, here is the positivity\

  1. 2X Florida - first flight with chloe since  2010 - first trip me and chloe
  2. N E W    Y O R K    - first trip me and andrea
  3. Burlington - second trip me and Andrea, his first time there
  4. O T T A W A - fun weekend the three of us
  5. LAURA - i paid for her visit for 1 week.














oct 30






oct.25

helen reddy
"education causes tolerance..."

made my brain think about...

chris thinks he knows everything
joe thinks he knows everything
neither have a degree

trumpers just want to believe they are right about everything....









october 24


"Love Will Keep Us Together" Captain & Tennille   38 "Could It Be Magic" Barry Manilow
"Rhinestone Cowboy" Glen Campbell   39 "Cat's in the Cradle" Harry Chapin
"Philadelphia Freedom" Elton John   42 "Listen to What the Man Said" Wings
"My Eyes Adored You" Frankie Valli   43 "I'm Not in Love" 10cc
"Shining Star" Earth, Wind & Fire   47 "When Will I Be Loved" Linda Ronstadt
"Fame" David Bowie   49 "You're the First, the Last, My Everything" Barry White
"Laughter in the Rain" Neil Sedaka   50 "Please Mr. Please" Olivia Newton-John
"One of These Nights" Eagles   51 "You're No Good" Linda Ronstadt
"Thank God I'm a Country Boy" John Denver   55 "Midnight Blue" Melissa Manchester
"Jive Talkin'" Bee Gees   56 "Don't Call Us, We'll Call You" Sugarloaf
"Best of My Love" Eagles   58 "How Long?" Ace
"Lovin' You" Minnie Riperton   60 "That's the Way of the World" Earth, Wind & Fire
"Kung Fu Fighting" Carl Douglas   61 "Lady" Styx
"At Seventeen" Janis Ian   69 "How Sweet It Is (To Be Loved by You)" James Taylor
"Pick Up the Pieces" Average White Band   70 "Dance with Me" Orleans
"Why Can't We Be Friends?" War   72 "Never Can Say Goodbye" Gloria Gaynor
"Boogie On Reggae Woman" Stevie Wonder   73 "I Don't Like to Sleep Alone" Paul Anka & Odia Coates
"Angie Baby" Helen Reddy   74 "Morning Side of the Mountain" Donny & Marie Osmond
"Sister Golden Hair" America   75 "When Will I See You Again" The Three Degrees
"Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds" Elton John   77 "I'm Sorry" John Denver
"Mandy" Barry Manilow   83 "Lonely People" America
"Have You Never Been Mellow" Olivia Newton-John   92 "Someone Saved My Life Tonight" Elton John


  93 "Bad Blood" Neil Sedaka


  94 "Only Yesterday" The Carpenters


oct. 18


why do i love new york 
why do i love tall buildings 
why do i love a city



why do i ask these questions


shouldn't i know everything by now


i’ve removed friends over the years 

cw thought i had issues with her - that’s odd - she hadn’t reached out to me in decades at one point


and my mom had lots of chat friends in 60s and 70s - wait did she have friends  or just socialized? (that wasn’t the original thought)

i guess the reason is cause her generation socialized 
younger gens don’t do the same 
don’t go to church don’t get married at 18 don’t finish kids at 30 and don’t have a social dinners in their 40s and 50s and 60s

maybe that’s an interesting tiktok ? 








oct. 13
sunday


took me 59 years to figure this out.

we'll  never figure it out..

is it really a constant learning thing? or is the world changing that changes us?




backhistory:



oct.. 7
laura arrived
work stress

oct.. 8
rug cleaning
she slept

oct.. 9
wed downtown shopping
i said fuck u work around 3pm

oct.. 10
asdf
i said fuck you work around 4pm


0ct. 11
friday sabrina show
mother fuckers
left work early again
walmart, renaissance, royalmount, then laura stressed over 55 dollaar transfer that disapeared




oct.. 12
airport, most stressful day of my year
watching everyone cry














oct. 2

3:04pm

he said he doesn’t interact with strangers cause of the idiots but i don’t interact with them cause of their judgemental comments
so perhaps he is them lol

some of us need confirmation of every single thing.
who is right
who is wrong
who is smart
who is dumb

i am not proud to be judgemental
i am not proud to make these decisions

i am not happy about it
but i need to be me.

i am who i am.




(i can literally write this because he will never know who it's about)