october 2024





oct. 18


why do i love new york 
why do i love tall buildings 
why do i love a city











oct. 13
sunday

took me 59 years to figure this out.

we'll  never figure it out..

is it really a constant learning thing? or is the world changing that changes us?




backhistory:



oct.. 7
laura arrived
work stress

oct.. 8
rug cleaning
she slept

oct.. 9
wed downtown shopping
i said fuck u work around 3pm

oct.. 10
asdf
i said fuck you work around 4pm


0ct. 11
friday sabrina show
mother fuckers
left work early again
walmart, renaissance, royalmount, then laura stressed over 55 dollaar transfer that disapeared




oct.. 12
airport, most stressful day of my year
watching everyone cry














oct. 2

3:04pm

he said he doesn’t interact with strangers cause of the idiots but i don’t interact with them cause of their judgemental comments
so perhaps he is them lol

some of us need confirmation of every single thing.
who is right
who is wrong
who is smart
who is dumb

i am not proud to be judgemental
i am not proud to make these decisions

i am not happy about it
but i need to be me.

i am who i am.




(i can literally write this because he will never know who it's about)