oct 2
i can't say a thing
other than
i am not you
and that i hate that world
it's that FeSi world
as soon as you think i don't like you
you don't like me
it's a tricky place
when the other half of you is gone
the half that hated the world with you
on your side
i used to be glad she is like me
but me raising me
wasn't a good idea
how do you change a world
when you need roots
then there's the you who used to have a million rules and now has mine
also remember when they invited you before you bought a Canada goose coat
and remember that they have nothing nice to say about anyone...
including you
just agree to what i offer....
yes, i know i used to be fussy AF 25 years ago, doesn't mean i still am
sept25
is it friday
friday
old day
new day
vlog day
blog day
dog day
dog day
sept 29
it's just nuts how many types of jobs i have dreamt of, but would never do.
sept25
INTP: why do they drink so much?
ENTJ: it's a long answer that you don't have the patience to listen to
...
INTP: i don't like it when i'm not in control
gee, who is this conversation about
sept 22
paid some bills
slept like shit
or the other way around
another boring day to come
to clean the house
or suck my thumb
sept 20
explain the tweet
https://twitter.com/louern/status/1572153725661356032?s=20&t=kGdi4cIgrxduUPad6E6fmw
there are just so many people i shouldn't have been friends with....
sept 19
sept.. 18
can i speak now
can i?
chips and frozen Hungaria through my brain
a lot of cats
and google-people
typing them would be easy
but not required
tick tick tick
t
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c
k
view from #campusMIL
sept 14
sept.. 17
i'm free i'm free again
free to brain
free to drain
free to live
i can write this here because her world is the other world;
her life is her life;
her memory is obsessed with her
restaurant
cheese
"did you get a job"
sept.. 16
friday
friday
this is the good old days
believe it or not
waking up with this difficult brain of mine
and expensive horrible decaf
but in silence for a couple of hours
and after the resolution
this hole is definitely getting deeper
sept.12
we choose people for certain qualities
but some of us change
as life goes on
and then those qualities are no longer the most important ones
it was a rough night with ringing ears
and no bed
and no boundaries
and now i have no space bar
are there bars in space?
how long is a week
how does someone have no boundaries
how much coffee will wake me
sept.9
there are all kinds of people
some are alone for sad reasons
and some for real ones
there is all kinds of money
big ones and medium
going in and out
and impacting everyone's lives
except those of us who are observant
if i write my anger
if i write my fears
it makes it real
so i skirt skirt skirt
but not with my thoughts
just what gets recorded
which is every thought i have
this veil today is really bad
what can compensate
i will try next time, world.
sept.6
can i type small nope
nope
nope
nope
but i can drink coffee
and listen to my ringing ears
and have a severe cramp
and a sore back!
sept.6
Triggeredddd
by
jusst
about everything
dont wanna see your name if:
1)you never reach out to me
2)you expect shit from me that i never get from you
3)you are judging me and watching me and judging everyone
4)you hunt me down cause you are envious
5)you think i should live like you
6)you assume i live like you
the list gets nasty, poots
september vlog
End of Summer 2022
https://youtu.be/bWSuyx65fak
sept4
Back to monitoring
back to counting
i actually care about the -3000
been a while
she will get some $
and do some math
she also watches
her numbers bath
it's sunday now and here i am
the N now works
was it a scam
gives sunday vibes
when i'm not sick
but still sick inside
when i think of it
of it and it and it and it
i'm losing words
that speak my mind
i'm hunting down
but cannot find
it is it is
what it is
photo sept. 3
sept3
some more words need to come out, to spout, to tout
large ones and small
actually just all
as times flies byes;
and life complies;
and everything tries
and everyone dies
this is not wise
semac
broken
back
broken
back
to
work