MOVING
ON
Sept 28
- i asked for gas, he
did not put gas, i have to do it
- he said he would
buy the furnace coroller on tuesday, it's thursday, he
has not bought it yet
- he sent me the
store link and I WENT but they do not have it.
- I've planned an
entire firepit weekend up north so that the furnace
can run so i can list the place for rent and if we do
not have the controller, i will not go up north and
the rental will be delayed
- Updated Sept 27:
- buy and replace shower liner
- buy all household tools and kitchenware and napkins and
tablecloths and whisks and Tupperware
- unpack them,
- put them away,
- organize them,
- throw away old shit
- buy all kitchen materials like foil and bags and
clips
- fill the decanter
- put gas in the car
- Buy food 3-4
times a week
- cook food 3-4
times a week
- household laundry
- wash the floor
daily
- vacuum daily
- change sheets
- wash walls
- wash cabinets
- wash cupboards
- wash the piano
- tidy everything
(well not any more)
- put everything
away (well not any more)
- all Christmas
shopping, decorating, tree decorations, etc
- wash the bathroom
when i have the energy
- spray the mould
on the bathroom ceiling and wash it
- clean the dog
messes, scrub the carpet
- i just bought a
brush and chemicl and washed the entire living room
and the entry carpet
- buy all entry
carpets,
- lighbulbs,
- replacements
for the BBQ,
- new door handle
for the patio door
- tell him to clean
the pig cage
- i feed the
hamster
- i fold the
kitchen towels and napkins and tablecloths
- i put them on, i
take them off, i wash them
- i sweep the
outdoors, front and back
- i mow the lawn
- i buy a weed
wacker to clean the lawn
- i organize
everything
- i bought a new
lamp
sept 25
monday
7::19 am
ringing ears, warm coffee, but i'm up
the ringing is loud;
it's making my head spin;
my thoughts are going a bit wild;
should i delete what i wrote below
it was not unkind;
it was they, who were;
"I had a BBQ"
with....
"who is that?"
....
"my friend?"
so here's how it works.
don't assume you know my life.
it's mine.
sept 18
4:36pm
- "i don't really care about my hair"
- "YOU Should!"
- "is it ugly?"
- "NO!!!"
then why not just say
- "It looks fine"
sept 17
9:06 am
retrograde ended on the 14th; but it takes a while to rub
off....
screen time on my laptop showed up
to remind me
there's stuff you don't know also, little poots
sunday,
slept ok;
party day;
pray pray pray;
that she's okay....
Anna, Hannah, Chloe
July 25, 2015
sept 15
friday
10:17 am
freeday (one meeting)
sleepday (slept all night)
pay-day (timesheet
submission day)
Pray-day (hannah)
cool day (16)
tool day (light fixture, patio door handle)
why day
Hi day
what i do in this house
- everything
- buy food 3-4 times
a week
- cook food 3-4 times
a week
- household laundry
- wash the floor
daily
- vacuum daily
- change sheets
- wash walls
- wash cabinets
- wash cupboards
- wash the piano
- tidy everything
(well not any more)
- put everything away
(well not any more)
- all Christmas
shopping, decorating, tree decorations, etc
- wash the bathroom
when i have the energy
- spray the mould on
the bathroom ceiling and wash it
- clean the dog
messes, scrub the carpet
- i just bought a
brush and chemicl and washed the entire living room
and the entry carpet
- buy all entry
carpets, lighbulbs, replacements for the BBQ, new door
handle for the patio door
- tell him to clean
the pig cage
- i feed the hamster
- i fold the kitchen
towels and napkins and tablecloths
- i put them on, i
take them off, i wash them
- i sweep the
outdoors, front and back
- i mow the lawn
- i buy a weed wacker
to clean the lawn
- i organize
everything
- i bought a new lamp
- etc.
sept 14
winter
is coming
2024 is coming
stiff back and ringing ears; but trying to focus on
other things;
ears less loud; coffee strong;
grateful grateful;
1,000 dollars used to be a shit ton of money for all of
us
now, it's not enough to go to Toronto for the weekend
time to poop 8:25am
prayers for Hannah please, she will make it
sept 11
RIP
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_victims_of_the_September_11_attacks_(A%E2%80%93G)
I willl visit your Memorial soon
sept 7
no one's ever gonna read this
right??
i have bad news
sept 5
no one's ever gonna read this
but as i listen to the woman upstairs drop shit on my
head all morning and night
it reminds me of why ernie hated everyone
she always mentions him not being over his daughter's death
kinda makes me wonder if she understands grief;
yet also
reminds me
how none of them understand anyone else
or never have deep conversations
sept 2
some people claim that there's a woman to blame
but i know
it's my own damn fault
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CICf8xoLyG8