sept 18
4:36pm

• "i don't really care about my hair"
• "YOU ShoulD!"
• (i'm 58 fuck you)
  
  
• "is it ugly?"
• "NO!!!"
  
  then why not just say
  
• "It looks fine"
  

sept 17

9:06 am
retrograde ended on the 14th; but it takes a while to rub off....

screen time on my laptop showed up
to remind me
there's stuff you don't know also, little poots

sunday,
slept ok;
party day;
pray pray pray;
that she's okay....


Anna, Hannah, Chloe
July 25, 2015








sept 15

friday               10:17 am

freeday (one meeting)
sleepday (slept all night)

pay-day (timesheet submission day)
Pray-day (hannah)

cool day (16)
tool day (light fixture, patio door handle)

why day
Hi day













what i do in this house

• everything
• buy food 3-4 times a week
• cook food 3-4 times a week
• household laundry
• wash the floor daily
• vacuum daily
• change sheets
  
• wash walls
• wash cabinets
• wash cupboards
• wash the piano
• tidy everything (well not any more)
• put everything away (well not any more)
• all Christmas shopping, decorating, tree decorations, etc
• wash the bathroom when i have the energy
• spray the mould on the bathroom ceiling and wash it
• clean the dog messes, scrub the carpet
• i just bought a brush and chemicl and washed the entire living room and the entry carpet
• buy all entry carpets, lighbulbs, replacements for the BBQ, new door handle for the patio door
• tell him to clean the pig cage
• i feed the hamster
  
• i fold the kitchen towels and napkins and tablecloths
• i put them on, i take them off, i wash them
  
• i sweep the outdoors, front and back
• i mow the lawn
• i buy a weed wacker to clean the lawn
• i organize everything
• i bought a new lamp
• etc.

sept 14


winter is coming
2024 is coming

stiff back and ringing ears; but trying to focus on other things;
ears less  loud; coffee strong;
grateful grateful;

1,000 dollars used to be a shit ton of money for all of us
now, it's not enough to go to Toronto for the weekend


time to poop 8:25am


prayers for Hannah please, she will  make it





sept 11


RIP

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_victims_of_the_September_11_attacks_(A%E2%80%93G)

I willl visit your Memorial soon








sept 7

no one's ever gonna read this

right??



i have bad news

sept 5

no one's ever gonna read this
but as i listen to the woman upstairs drop shit on my  head all morning and night
it reminds me of why ernie hated everyone

she always mentions him not being over his daughter's death
kinda makes me wonder if she understands grief;
yet also
reminds me
how none of them understand anyone else
or never have deep conversations







sept 2

some people claim that there's a woman to blame
but i  know
it's my own damn fault

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CICf8xoLyG8